Wednesday, October 5, 2011

I Can Stop Time

How does one stop time? How does one slow the process of the children growing ‘too fast’?

You grew again, didn’t you?
“Yes.”
Why must you? Will you stop please?
“No Mommy. I want to grow up to be a teenager.”
Will you still snuggle with me when you are a teenager?
“When I am five I will snuggle with you, but not when I am ten.”

How can I keep ten from coming? And yet still give the blonde boy freedom to fly? There must be a way.

There is.

I know the secret.

Stay present.

I’ve spent years staying in my calendar, my ministry, my agenda…looking ahead, planning, prepping…

and   l o s i n g   m o m e n t s.

The moments when the first boy tells me about his day—away from me—as I blind myself to the screaming screen blaring back at me.

The moments when my husband—the one I’ve promised, pledged and vowed to love, cherish, and honor—shares good news of a bonus, a sale, an increased commission…But the laundry was too high and too loud to hear—anything.

The moments when the blonde boy tells me great and tall tales of his adventures that never really happened—because they never really happened.

I am learning to stop time.

I must stop time.

I must stay present.

While the snuggle is still available--before he turns ten.

lk

How will you stop time today?

Here or somewhere…be real. Share your journey. 

Music to Stop Time…

A Moment Lost by David Nevue
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ErJ8juSJOMo

6 comments:

  1. The emergence of you speaks to the glory of God.

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  2. I LOVE this reminder to stay present! This is a topic of much interest in my life as I too endeavor to be present for my loved ones. So beautifully written and real. Thank you for sharing.

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  3. Love this!! I too need to remind myself to stay present, and be intentional about letting other things fall away rather then pushing it too hard and too far to where the thing that falls away is the time with my family.

    Thank you for being real and honest and vulnerable about navigating motherhood!

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  4. Beautiful confirmation! How important it is to wait upon the Lord, to be present in His presence, right here, right now!

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  5. Soooooooooo wonderful... Love this! I want to have time stand still too... every day Rainee gets bigger and I wonder... when will she stop holding my hand when we cross the street or snuggle when we watch a movie or just say I love you for no reason at all... I want every moment I can get now...I don't want this precious time to stop....
    have a great day... {{hugs}} Michelle

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